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Beautiful.

[He barely whispers the word after he comes with a harsh cry as well. It is all messy slick and sweat covered bodies that he doesn't pull away from.]

You are beautiful.

[He runs a thumb over one eye and barely restrains pressing in.]

[ Aaah ... wouldn't it be nice to let him do just that. But if he lost a eye now, after the game has already ended, people would ask questions. He catches his breath, taking some moments before he talks - and when he does his voice is still a little raspy ]

I — should be the one to say that to you.

You really enjoy breaking me, mm ...

How else are you to feel alive? Petty human emotions only go so far.

[He pauses thinking how to phrase the next part.]

The anger has stayed with me the most. The desire to watch everything burn. You're sturdy. I won't push too far. But I do want to see you in pieces. Just for me.

[He lazes on him ensuring they are still connected as he does.]

[ he's pretty content with that, and he even moves his arms around him, holding him there and humming at the words ]

I'm not surprised it's anger that stayed with you. I always thought I'd never get rid of it.

Even now, I haven't. I just changed its target.

Dottore. He finally pushed too far, did he?

[He curls up on him content as a cat.]

I kill him. I'll kill all of them that would dare to anger my Herald. Gods get to be fickle after all.

... Mm. One day I will share what he did. It does concern you as well after all, so I'd let you take a piece of him.

For myself as well as for yourself.

[ bringing his hand to his back, stroking it idly ]

Besides, he probably took all the credit for turning you into a god. As if you weren't the most important part of it all.

...

...

Is that what changed you? What Dottore did?

[ how to put it ]

Not exactly. But finding out about it changed my perspective. In the end it was the truth that changed me.

Though I'm not sure saying I "changed" is correct either. I accepted myself and my pitiful past.

So I'm 'pitiful' now.

[He scoffs. There isn't any bite to it as he curls up in his arms.]

Whatever. You still wanted to see it. The Sumeru I preside over. I still need a second terminal, so you'll have to wait for that.

You would agree to it this time, right?

We both were pitiful back then, weren't we? When we walked into that furnace with that heart.

I'll take it, this time. But I won't keep it on all the time. Is that fine?

We were.

[To the question he responds affirmatively by kissing his neck.]

Just for things better shown than spoken. With death and other side effects, it would be too dangerous to keep on all the time.

[ he tilts his head for him at that, keeping with his caresses too, definitely wanting to keep staying close like this and enjoying his presence ]

It would be. Either of us could take advantage of it during a death hangover, to start with.

... I do also have a pendant that allows me to visit dreams. If you want to show me sooner rather than later, I could visit them like so.

Encroaching on my domain, are you?

It would be a better alternative than trapping you in an endless loop. Fine. When we find a spare moment, I will ask you about it.

Mm. I thought the power a little distasteful, given my circumstances. But looking at it that way makes it more bearable.

Something we share despite our different circumstances.

[He just laughs. He knows it a sore spot with Mochi, but he's simply entertained by the irony of it.]

You like that. Finding similarities between us. Not that I blame you.

[He wraps his arms around his middle nails biting just a little.]

You are in charge of cleaning us up once we move. It's all part of the devotion you mentioned earlier. And I've had enough with menial chores.

I like finding the differences, too. But I do enjoy seeing that even after taking different paths somet hings ended up being close enough.

As for that ...

Let me enjoy you like this for a little while longer, and then I'll take care of you.

More than a little while.

[He has no intention of moving as he brushes a knee across skin.]

Close enough? Don't compare us just yet. You've got a lot to learn. Though if you always stayed like this I wouldn't mind either.

Oh? So you like my differences too.

[Don't call him out.]

Except when you are pathetic. You can get rid of that.

[No, he still likes him even when he is pathetic in his skewed sense of the word.]

[ there's a soft laugh at that, and then he leans in to kiss his cheek ]

But since you are the only one who is allowed to call me pathetic, doesn't that mean it also has value?

It's not a term of endearment!

Since it is from you, I'll still take it as that.

[Mochi: 1]

[What does he even do with this?]

You're weird.

Maybe, but you like me. You wouldn't be wasting your time with me otherwise.

I do like you. Just as you won't let just anyone call you pathetic, I wouldn't let just anyone hold me like this.

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